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Craig, thank you for pointing me to Mark C.E. Peterson’s post on reflection. Enjoyed reading that! And can also relate to standing under the gaze of that particular Athena!
But after my long disjointed ramble last night, realized I had not answered upon reflection the worry of “what the neighbor’s will think of me?”

My reflection  is:?the fear of rejection and or being cast out from the group…the desire to be a team player for a more surface but subconsciously rooted reason…

then there are those who even though they feel differently innately would rather avoid conflict than listen to the inner voice. Maybe that was true for “P” as well?

Or at a more extreme end “punishment” and “ridicule,” for not matching up the “accepted wisdom dejour.”

Or perhaps a fear that without the group guidance one will cause harm because they are not ready to trust themselves, the inner knowing.

An aside on trust since I blearily brought that up in previous post. Should have said trust becomes a factor not just between oneself and others BUT also between one’s self and SELF.
Just as collaboration can happen between people AND happen within one’s self.

 

Then there might be the conflict that the “group wisdom or code,” is always more honorable or altruistic than one’s own internal radar or inner voice. So here the messy conflict begins

Parzival feels something different but what if he is ashamed…he’s not supposed to…it’s selfish and wrong he must adhere to traditional or accepted wisdom.
Wasn’t Parzival kind of new to the “questing” at first.
How could a “newbie” like him possibly find a key his more experienced peers did not?
Then the fear of offending comes in—his intuition can’t possibly be right because the other Knights by experience and code should be much better and wiser than Parzival.
He is an upstart…and fears rocking the boat.

When I’ve mentioned Parzival in passing to others who know of the Arthurian stories funnily Parzival successes seem to be absent from their perspective.
It seems like there are some who perceived Parzival as the “unworthy” knight…the bad knight…the one who messed up.
It’s only through Joe Campbell and these other deeper mythic translations where Parzival is allowed a little light to shine. Or it seemed that way to me. Laugh.
Maybe it’s different now. (I hope heh heh)

But it also shows the message of the deeper honor (internal) is sometimes still missed or misunderstood in modern times.

So yes sorry was all over the place in the winding post last night. But coming back with a clearer head wanted to just give my reflective thoughts on “why” so many have knee jerk reactions to “what the neighbors will think of me?”

Guess there is still a way to go reflecting on honor.

-borrowing from both C.E. Peterson and Craig Deininger! 😉